Every now and then you just come across something that makes you stop and say WTF!!! This is one of those things. The Iloveegg website is bizarre, and I can't figure out if the site is trying to boost the egg industry, like, "Beef, it's what's for dinner," and, "Got Milk?" or, if they are trying to sell something like Hello Kitty. I tell you, the things people do.
Anyway, that's about all I have for now. Merry Christmas, or Happy Hanukkah, or Glad Yule, or whatever it is you do. Festivus?
Saturday, December 25, 2004
Monday, December 20, 2004
Talent
There was a talent show a couple days ago, combined with a Christmas dinner at church. They were short on people, so I performed. I play guitar a bit. The show was not bad, and I wasn't the low point or anything, so that was cool. There was a lot of pretty good stuff. A couple other people with guitars, a few singers. Usual stuff I guess. Then today, we had a Christmas program, being the Sunday before Christmas and all. It went fairly well, could have used a little more polish though. Not the best one I've ever been in, but it was the first time our choir ever performed.
Just to update on Jade, we talked, and she asked me what I wanted. It told her. We're doing the friends thing now. I think it will fade. Like I said, nothing in common. She was talking to some other guy, at a movie a whole crapload of us were at. He has a girlfriend, but he seems to like her alright. Unless I'm just nuts or something.
Just to update on Jade, we talked, and she asked me what I wanted. It told her. We're doing the friends thing now. I think it will fade. Like I said, nothing in common. She was talking to some other guy, at a movie a whole crapload of us were at. He has a girlfriend, but he seems to like her alright. Unless I'm just nuts or something.
Thursday, December 16, 2004
Jade
So, here's one.
Kind of a big day, a big week really. I just came in from outside, I spent some time out there walking around, thinking. The cold is still in my fingers, and it makes it hard to type.
I said it's been a big day/week, not a good one, although it has honestly been great. Also, given the choice I may prefer to do without it.
I met this girl. Really she met me. I didn't have a whole lot to do with the proceedings, although I was certainly a willing participant. I'm going to call this girl Jade in this post, for the sake of anonymity.
So, Jade came up to me, we were talking, she told me some pretty personal things. Things you wouldn't normally share with people, but she said she really liked me. I liked her, too. This was all last Monday. It's Friday now, early Friday. Late Thursday really.
We went out with a bunch of friends, to Denny's. Just to hang out really. No one was hungry. Jade asked me If I liked her. If I wanted to go out with her. The idea intrigued me. No one has ever liked me like that before, and I had seen her before, and thought she was pretty cute. Different from the others I see around church too. I drove her home that night. I went home feeling like I had won the lottery.
Jade has one screwed up life. I really feel bad for her, and I know I can't ever really understand where she is coming from.
She seems to have some kind of problems with dependency. Maybe that's all she saw in me, someone to love so she can feel whole. I wish I could help her with that. She seems so strong in so many other ways, but she constantly asked me if I loved her, and was always telling me that she gave me her heart, and that she would love me forever.
I can't cope with that.
Maybe it's just that Jade is too much younger than I am. There is a bit of a gap, and although I don't doubt her sincerity when she says she loves me, I can't believe that she understands what she is saying.
It's too cold in here. I can't type right. Shivering too much.
Okay, back with coat. I think I was out too long. I wanted to feel the cold, to feel something, but It just wasn't hitting me. It's hitting me now.
Anyway, The day after Denny's, she called me. She wanted to know if I wanted to go hang out at her house. It was great. We just hung around for a while, talked. I met her brother, he's a putz. But he's just at that age. Her mother came home. Her mother is short, skinny, missing a couple of teeth, and has a mullet going on. Jade doesn't especially get along with her mother. She gets along with her father, step-father, okay, but he's in jail for some DUI sort of thing.
After a while, we started watching a movie. Waterworld. I like that movie. It just has a cool style to it. Normally when I say a movie has a cool style, it's a Tim Burton movie, but this one has a totally different feel. Jade likes the movie alright too. We were sitting by each other of course, and she put her hand on my chest. There was a time not too long ago, when I thought that would be just about the perfect way to watch a movie, and it turns out it was. As I left that night, we were saying goodbye, and she kissed me. I've never done that before. It was really nice.
I don't think we have too much in common though. I'm working on getting a couple more technical certifications to go with the CCNA I already have, and Jade hates computers. She wants to be either a nurse, a veterinarian, or a cosmetologist. I thought the first two were cool, but it turns out, Jade has a thing against gross things (the scenes from Waterworld were a bit much for her), and science (It came up a couple of times, and she just changed the subject, and said she didn't like that sort of thing). Understandable, but not exactly something I find desirable. Jade is not without her good points. She has a sort of goth-punk thing going, which I really kind of like, and she doesn't let it get so harsh that it gets annoying, She's into rodeo, and knows stuff about cows and horses. Not an interest I share, but it's nice to talk about briefly.
Anyway, I kept hoping there would be something we would have in common that would come up. We had only known each other for a couple of days, so there was a lot we didn't know about each other.
The thing that bugged me I think was the dependency. I was thinking maybe that was just an initial thing, maybe it would mellow out in a bit. Tuesday, Jade must have called me like four or five times. She kind of wanted me to go over again. We were already planning on me going down there on Friday. I don't know much about relationships, but I'm thinking that can't be right. She called me as much on Wednesday too. It was nice talking to her both days, just a bit overwhelming. She did it again today. She always wants to know if I love her, I thought I was clear that I didn't know yet. She told me she had given me her heart, that I knew that, and today, she said I was ripping it up and throwing it away.
I can't deal with that.
We were standing around at church today, talking with a bunch of friends. I find them to be friends. I thought she liked them. She apparently hates the guy I was talking to. She says he really frustrates her. She walked up to him, and hugged him a couple of times, seemed to me that she liked him okay. He made a couple of cracks about how women were nothing but trouble, I laughed, she got pissed.
Women are nothing but trouble.
Jade started doing things like pulling the hair on the back of my head, smacking my arms, pinching my back. None of which are too unpleasant, but I have to wonder where she is going with this. She's had a few, maybe more than a few boyfriends who were abusive. I'm not saying she did anything on the level of what she's told me about, but this was a sudden change that I don't like.
The guy she says she hates asked why I was getting punished for what he said. Shortly after that she went outside and told me to follow her. I left them to go talk. That was when she said I'm ripping her heart up. She asked me again if I even want to keep dating her. She asks me so much I wonder what she wants. I think I'm done now. We're going to talk tomorrow. I've got to say something about this all, I just don't know what. I'm just pretty sure this is over now.
That was when I started walking around. I cut up my fists a bit on a brick wall, I ran a little, the cold air made my lungs hurt. I laid on the grass (the areas that had no snow) for a while to think. And I walked around some more. Then I put my coat back on, got in the car, and drove home. I'm sure there are better ways to deal with stress, but I don't know them.
So, one girlfriend for almost a week. That's like a record. Anyway, I'm still cold, and I'm tired, and I've had about enough of this for now.
Kind of a big day, a big week really. I just came in from outside, I spent some time out there walking around, thinking. The cold is still in my fingers, and it makes it hard to type.
I said it's been a big day/week, not a good one, although it has honestly been great. Also, given the choice I may prefer to do without it.
I met this girl. Really she met me. I didn't have a whole lot to do with the proceedings, although I was certainly a willing participant. I'm going to call this girl Jade in this post, for the sake of anonymity.
So, Jade came up to me, we were talking, she told me some pretty personal things. Things you wouldn't normally share with people, but she said she really liked me. I liked her, too. This was all last Monday. It's Friday now, early Friday. Late Thursday really.
We went out with a bunch of friends, to Denny's. Just to hang out really. No one was hungry. Jade asked me If I liked her. If I wanted to go out with her. The idea intrigued me. No one has ever liked me like that before, and I had seen her before, and thought she was pretty cute. Different from the others I see around church too. I drove her home that night. I went home feeling like I had won the lottery.
Jade has one screwed up life. I really feel bad for her, and I know I can't ever really understand where she is coming from.
She seems to have some kind of problems with dependency. Maybe that's all she saw in me, someone to love so she can feel whole. I wish I could help her with that. She seems so strong in so many other ways, but she constantly asked me if I loved her, and was always telling me that she gave me her heart, and that she would love me forever.
I can't cope with that.
Maybe it's just that Jade is too much younger than I am. There is a bit of a gap, and although I don't doubt her sincerity when she says she loves me, I can't believe that she understands what she is saying.
It's too cold in here. I can't type right. Shivering too much.
Okay, back with coat. I think I was out too long. I wanted to feel the cold, to feel something, but It just wasn't hitting me. It's hitting me now.
Anyway, The day after Denny's, she called me. She wanted to know if I wanted to go hang out at her house. It was great. We just hung around for a while, talked. I met her brother, he's a putz. But he's just at that age. Her mother came home. Her mother is short, skinny, missing a couple of teeth, and has a mullet going on. Jade doesn't especially get along with her mother. She gets along with her father, step-father, okay, but he's in jail for some DUI sort of thing.
After a while, we started watching a movie. Waterworld. I like that movie. It just has a cool style to it. Normally when I say a movie has a cool style, it's a Tim Burton movie, but this one has a totally different feel. Jade likes the movie alright too. We were sitting by each other of course, and she put her hand on my chest. There was a time not too long ago, when I thought that would be just about the perfect way to watch a movie, and it turns out it was. As I left that night, we were saying goodbye, and she kissed me. I've never done that before. It was really nice.
I don't think we have too much in common though. I'm working on getting a couple more technical certifications to go with the CCNA I already have, and Jade hates computers. She wants to be either a nurse, a veterinarian, or a cosmetologist. I thought the first two were cool, but it turns out, Jade has a thing against gross things (the scenes from Waterworld were a bit much for her), and science (It came up a couple of times, and she just changed the subject, and said she didn't like that sort of thing). Understandable, but not exactly something I find desirable. Jade is not without her good points. She has a sort of goth-punk thing going, which I really kind of like, and she doesn't let it get so harsh that it gets annoying, She's into rodeo, and knows stuff about cows and horses. Not an interest I share, but it's nice to talk about briefly.
Anyway, I kept hoping there would be something we would have in common that would come up. We had only known each other for a couple of days, so there was a lot we didn't know about each other.
The thing that bugged me I think was the dependency. I was thinking maybe that was just an initial thing, maybe it would mellow out in a bit. Tuesday, Jade must have called me like four or five times. She kind of wanted me to go over again. We were already planning on me going down there on Friday. I don't know much about relationships, but I'm thinking that can't be right. She called me as much on Wednesday too. It was nice talking to her both days, just a bit overwhelming. She did it again today. She always wants to know if I love her, I thought I was clear that I didn't know yet. She told me she had given me her heart, that I knew that, and today, she said I was ripping it up and throwing it away.
I can't deal with that.
We were standing around at church today, talking with a bunch of friends. I find them to be friends. I thought she liked them. She apparently hates the guy I was talking to. She says he really frustrates her. She walked up to him, and hugged him a couple of times, seemed to me that she liked him okay. He made a couple of cracks about how women were nothing but trouble, I laughed, she got pissed.
Women are nothing but trouble.
Jade started doing things like pulling the hair on the back of my head, smacking my arms, pinching my back. None of which are too unpleasant, but I have to wonder where she is going with this. She's had a few, maybe more than a few boyfriends who were abusive. I'm not saying she did anything on the level of what she's told me about, but this was a sudden change that I don't like.
The guy she says she hates asked why I was getting punished for what he said. Shortly after that she went outside and told me to follow her. I left them to go talk. That was when she said I'm ripping her heart up. She asked me again if I even want to keep dating her. She asks me so much I wonder what she wants. I think I'm done now. We're going to talk tomorrow. I've got to say something about this all, I just don't know what. I'm just pretty sure this is over now.
That was when I started walking around. I cut up my fists a bit on a brick wall, I ran a little, the cold air made my lungs hurt. I laid on the grass (the areas that had no snow) for a while to think. And I walked around some more. Then I put my coat back on, got in the car, and drove home. I'm sure there are better ways to deal with stress, but I don't know them.
So, one girlfriend for almost a week. That's like a record. Anyway, I'm still cold, and I'm tired, and I've had about enough of this for now.
Sunday, December 12, 2004
Now with 30% less lame!
This blog comes to you with 30% less lame. This means I finally bit the freakin' bullet, and did that whole bit of a date thing. The one I've been supposed to do since August 28th. It was a hoot. We watched Hero. It's a good movie. Awesome style, unusual story. Good company to watch it with.
In other news, I've completed another semester at the community college. I got straight A's in all four classes, and now need to schedule the A+ exam with CompTIA. Wish me luck. I understand that it is much easier than the CCNA exam, which I already have passed, but you're never sure until it's over.
I also just finished a couple of Neil Gaiman's books. I recommend American Gods, and Stardust. Both good. Both seem typical of what I have come to know of Gaiman's style. He seems to like the surreal fantasy world, but in American Gods, like Neverwhere, he keeps it in a modern setting, still as unreal as Tolkien's works. Gaiman does tend to have some moments that are just a little too unbelievable, but his characters stay interesting, and real, and the characters are really why I read the books anyway.
Alright, I've got some studying for the big exam, and some sleep to get here, and the sleep is about to win out over both studying and writing.
In other news, I've completed another semester at the community college. I got straight A's in all four classes, and now need to schedule the A+ exam with CompTIA. Wish me luck. I understand that it is much easier than the CCNA exam, which I already have passed, but you're never sure until it's over.
I also just finished a couple of Neil Gaiman's books. I recommend American Gods, and Stardust. Both good. Both seem typical of what I have come to know of Gaiman's style. He seems to like the surreal fantasy world, but in American Gods, like Neverwhere, he keeps it in a modern setting, still as unreal as Tolkien's works. Gaiman does tend to have some moments that are just a little too unbelievable, but his characters stay interesting, and real, and the characters are really why I read the books anyway.
Alright, I've got some studying for the big exam, and some sleep to get here, and the sleep is about to win out over both studying and writing.
Saturday, December 4, 2004
True Dreams
There's an old saying I've heard. I think it's Greek. It's something about how the truest dreams are dreamt in the morning. I don't know where they get that, maybe because those are the only ones you can remember well. I don't know.
I had a strange one this morning. I dreamt that I died.
It was brief. I was working on someone's electrical outlet. A friend's, trying to make it work again. I'm not sure what was wrong with it, I think it was one of those ones that only works with a light switch, and she wanted a normal one. This part probably comes from a discussion I was having with the friend I recently went climbing with. Anyway, I was using a multimeter to test the current in the outlet, and I couldn't remember how to use it correctly. As soon as I touched one of the leads to the outlet, I felt the electricity flowing through my arms, and I felt my heart stop. It doesn't seem like something you would normally feel, it wasn't like a painful heart attack or anything, I just felt a brief pulse, and then the silence when it stops beating. It was a strange sensation. The last thing I saw was a bright flash of light, a little greenish around the edges. In the light was a woman, I could only see part of her, from just below the breasts to about the middle of the hips. Bare skin glowing, and surrounded with the green light. It was so bright it hurt my eyes.
Then I woke up. It was 8:30 and I couldn't go back to sleep. I wasn't tired. My eyes were dry, and didn't want to open, but I wasn't tired. And I only went to sleep five or six hours before this. Normally I go to bed late, wake up at 11:00, and could usually go back to sleep for a little while longer, to catch a total of about eight hours. And, I haven't felt tired from this today.
I'm not saying this is a prophecy or anything, with that whole Greek true dream crap, unless I like, die tomorrow or something. Seems unlikely. It was just a very real feeling dream, kind of unnerving.
I had a strange one this morning. I dreamt that I died.
It was brief. I was working on someone's electrical outlet. A friend's, trying to make it work again. I'm not sure what was wrong with it, I think it was one of those ones that only works with a light switch, and she wanted a normal one. This part probably comes from a discussion I was having with the friend I recently went climbing with. Anyway, I was using a multimeter to test the current in the outlet, and I couldn't remember how to use it correctly. As soon as I touched one of the leads to the outlet, I felt the electricity flowing through my arms, and I felt my heart stop. It doesn't seem like something you would normally feel, it wasn't like a painful heart attack or anything, I just felt a brief pulse, and then the silence when it stops beating. It was a strange sensation. The last thing I saw was a bright flash of light, a little greenish around the edges. In the light was a woman, I could only see part of her, from just below the breasts to about the middle of the hips. Bare skin glowing, and surrounded with the green light. It was so bright it hurt my eyes.
Then I woke up. It was 8:30 and I couldn't go back to sleep. I wasn't tired. My eyes were dry, and didn't want to open, but I wasn't tired. And I only went to sleep five or six hours before this. Normally I go to bed late, wake up at 11:00, and could usually go back to sleep for a little while longer, to catch a total of about eight hours. And, I haven't felt tired from this today.
I'm not saying this is a prophecy or anything, with that whole Greek true dream crap, unless I like, die tomorrow or something. Seems unlikely. It was just a very real feeling dream, kind of unnerving.
Too Lame
Two posts in one day, this didn't really belong with the other post. I mentioned on the August 28th entry that I won two dates in a church activity. One of these was taken care of within like, a couple of weeks. The other one I still have done nothing with.
I am such a wuss.
I was given a card to rent a movie at a local grocery store, and a bag of microwave popcorn, and I was supposed to then ask her on a date. Here's where bein a wuss comes in. I still have done nothing about that. The first one was taken care of quickly only because she set the time and date. The second one though, no such luck. She even mentioned it once, and all I did was some lame bashful mumble, like, "yeah, I meant to do that, I still have the stuff for it." How lame am I?
It's not like I dislike her or anything, she is quite possibly the most awesome person I have ever met. She likes to run, and hike, and camp. She's even built and slept in a snowcave. I always wanted to build and live in a snowcave. I mean sleep in a snowcave. Just for like one night.
She's been bungee jumping.
Also, she laughs a lot. And hums with songs she's never heard before. Freakin' awesome.
I realize that I'm pretty bad here, but in my defense, I do talk to her, and I took her rock climbing today. That's almost like a date.
One of these days I've got to freakin' grow up and stop being afraid of girls.
I am such a wuss.
I was given a card to rent a movie at a local grocery store, and a bag of microwave popcorn, and I was supposed to then ask her on a date. Here's where bein a wuss comes in. I still have done nothing about that. The first one was taken care of quickly only because she set the time and date. The second one though, no such luck. She even mentioned it once, and all I did was some lame bashful mumble, like, "yeah, I meant to do that, I still have the stuff for it." How lame am I?
It's not like I dislike her or anything, she is quite possibly the most awesome person I have ever met. She likes to run, and hike, and camp. She's even built and slept in a snowcave. I always wanted to build and live in a snowcave. I mean sleep in a snowcave. Just for like one night.
She's been bungee jumping.
Also, she laughs a lot. And hums with songs she's never heard before. Freakin' awesome.
I realize that I'm pretty bad here, but in my defense, I do talk to her, and I took her rock climbing today. That's almost like a date.
One of these days I've got to freakin' grow up and stop being afraid of girls.
X-mas
So, I'm watching the news here, and apparently you are not allowed to have a Christmas float in a holiday parade going on downtown here. What the crap man. They do have a gay/lesbian float, but Christmas is too controversial in a holiday parade. I think if they denied a Chanukah float, there would be talk of antisemitism.
The world is just freakin' wrong. I'd be pissed if they refused any major holiday in a HOLIDAY parade.
The separation of church and state is not currently in existence. It's just that the church they support isn't the Catholic or Anglican one now, it's The Holy Church of Athiesm. And Athiesm is a religion. Complete with proselytizing.
Saying students can't pray in school is as wrong as saying they have to. Not that I pray much in school. I'm not that guy. Still.
The world is just freakin' wrong. I'd be pissed if they refused any major holiday in a HOLIDAY parade.
The separation of church and state is not currently in existence. It's just that the church they support isn't the Catholic or Anglican one now, it's The Holy Church of Athiesm. And Athiesm is a religion. Complete with proselytizing.
Saying students can't pray in school is as wrong as saying they have to. Not that I pray much in school. I'm not that guy. Still.
Friday, December 3, 2004
Screwit
The word of the day is SCREWIT.
The bonsai is most certainly dead. Screwit.
I was tired of the look of my blog. Too much default, not enough style, so I stole some style from a great blog I read. Freakin' thieves.
The artwork is entirely mine. I scanned a black ink drawing I made, and photoshopped some color into it.
The color scheme is also mine. Created from a Juggling toy I have. If any of you aren't familiar with devil sticks, get acquainted.
So all I really stole was the complicated code that makes it all laid out nicely. That's the new look. It's not quite done, but at least it's a look.
Anyway, it looks like I skipped November. I guess it wasn't as exciting as I had hoped. I went to my grandparents house for Thanksgiving, saw a small pile of cousins I was unfamiliar with. I knew their names and all, it's just been about 12 or 13 years since I lived in Utah with the lot of them.
That was the entirety of November. Half a paragraph. Not the way to blog. One of these days I swear I'll get better.
The bonsai is most certainly dead. Screwit.
I was tired of the look of my blog. Too much default, not enough style, so I stole some style from a great blog I read. Freakin' thieves.
The artwork is entirely mine. I scanned a black ink drawing I made, and photoshopped some color into it.
The color scheme is also mine. Created from a Juggling toy I have. If any of you aren't familiar with devil sticks, get acquainted.
So all I really stole was the complicated code that makes it all laid out nicely. That's the new look. It's not quite done, but at least it's a look.
Anyway, it looks like I skipped November. I guess it wasn't as exciting as I had hoped. I went to my grandparents house for Thanksgiving, saw a small pile of cousins I was unfamiliar with. I knew their names and all, it's just been about 12 or 13 years since I lived in Utah with the lot of them.
That was the entirety of November. Half a paragraph. Not the way to blog. One of these days I swear I'll get better.
Thursday, October 28, 2004
Bonsai
I've been having a little bonsai trouble lately. The tree looks really nice. It's a star juniper, good shape, good size, but the foliage seems to be drying out. I don't know what the problem is. I've been checking the soil moisture lately. This one is my best, but I haven't had a really successful one yet. Unless this one doesn't die. Then I'm good.
I made my own alphabet. It's kind of pointless I know, but it is a little bit better than it sounds. It's phonetic, and has enough letters for all of the different sounds. Even reading that now, I know how lame it sounds, but I'll have you know vowel sounds are more complicated and numerous than it initially seems. Okay, that is lame. I'll move on now.
Not really a whole freakin' lot else going on. School's going well enough. I'd better go before I come up with something worse to talk about than a fake alphabet.
I made my own alphabet. It's kind of pointless I know, but it is a little bit better than it sounds. It's phonetic, and has enough letters for all of the different sounds. Even reading that now, I know how lame it sounds, but I'll have you know vowel sounds are more complicated and numerous than it initially seems. Okay, that is lame. I'll move on now.
Not really a whole freakin' lot else going on. School's going well enough. I'd better go before I come up with something worse to talk about than a fake alphabet.
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
Dual-Boot
I just tried again to get a dual-boot thing going on with my computer between Microsoft Windows XP, and FreeBSD Unix. Last time, I tried to get things going harmoniously with XP, and Suse Linux, RedHat Linux, and Windows 98. If any of you are thinking of trying this, screw it. Except the Win98 bit, that worked okay. But still, screw it.
Setting up your machine to boot separate operating systems is a waste of time. Get a second freakin' box. They don't naturally play nice together, and if you do get them to, there seems to be no point.
My next great plan is to get a second box, install Unix, and run a bit of a server off of it. I'm not holding my breath on this one, maybe have it out in like a year or two.
Anyway, I got all my files back up and everything, and aside from that whole mess, things are going well. Or as well as ever. Utah was good, seeing people there was good. Getting back and seeing people here was good. No complaints really. School is also going good. Finals are coming up tomorrow, a little early due to the compressed schedule, but I'm not too worried about them. I don't typically have big problems on tests, and I've got all day tomorrow to study for them. Last minute like.
I'm also thinking about changing some things around on my website. Not too sure I like where it is enough to finish things of in that direction. But I don't hate it enough to remove it. Maybe just add some interesting crap somewhere. I could throw up some of my photoshoped pictures. If I do, they will be on venenum. I don't keep that kind of stuff on vociferor.
That's about it for now, just remember, Dual-Boot sucks.
Setting up your machine to boot separate operating systems is a waste of time. Get a second freakin' box. They don't naturally play nice together, and if you do get them to, there seems to be no point.
My next great plan is to get a second box, install Unix, and run a bit of a server off of it. I'm not holding my breath on this one, maybe have it out in like a year or two.
Anyway, I got all my files back up and everything, and aside from that whole mess, things are going well. Or as well as ever. Utah was good, seeing people there was good. Getting back and seeing people here was good. No complaints really. School is also going good. Finals are coming up tomorrow, a little early due to the compressed schedule, but I'm not too worried about them. I don't typically have big problems on tests, and I've got all day tomorrow to study for them. Last minute like.
I'm also thinking about changing some things around on my website. Not too sure I like where it is enough to finish things of in that direction. But I don't hate it enough to remove it. Maybe just add some interesting crap somewhere. I could throw up some of my photoshoped pictures. If I do, they will be on venenum. I don't keep that kind of stuff on vociferor.
That's about it for now, just remember, Dual-Boot sucks.
Friday, October 1, 2004
Takes a thief
It seems, unfortunatly, that security is almost always an illusion. And that's not even counting huge things, like nuclear war, and freak terrorist attacks, just your day to day, locking up, keeping safe kind of stuff. They say a lock will not keep out a determined thief. It will only keep an honest man honest.
I have a car with a broken out window. I've covered it up with plastic, but there is nothing to stop someone from punching through it to get inside, so I don't lock my doors. After all, the lock won't keep them out. What keeps them out is the total lack of value in the car, or its contents. It's something intangible. It's like pennies on the sidwalk. No one picks them up.
This whole lack of security thing is why I like to study lockpicking. That, and the couple of times it's actually been useful. I mean, it's not everyday someone loses their keys, but it's nice to be able to help them when they do. I just wish I could get a nice set of lockpicks, instead of the bent pins and crap I'm using. They seem to be restricted here, and I'm not sure how to go about being one of the guys who is allowed to have them. Maybe I should look into some kind of locksmith classes or certification. Nothing that will delay, or get in the way of my current education goals, just another hobby.
I have a car with a broken out window. I've covered it up with plastic, but there is nothing to stop someone from punching through it to get inside, so I don't lock my doors. After all, the lock won't keep them out. What keeps them out is the total lack of value in the car, or its contents. It's something intangible. It's like pennies on the sidwalk. No one picks them up.
This whole lack of security thing is why I like to study lockpicking. That, and the couple of times it's actually been useful. I mean, it's not everyday someone loses their keys, but it's nice to be able to help them when they do. I just wish I could get a nice set of lockpicks, instead of the bent pins and crap I'm using. They seem to be restricted here, and I'm not sure how to go about being one of the guys who is allowed to have them. Maybe I should look into some kind of locksmith classes or certification. Nothing that will delay, or get in the way of my current education goals, just another hobby.
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
Skippy
It's been a while since I've updated Vociferor. I never really finished my last round of updates, but I don't especially like the direction it's heading in. I've got to do some work on it. Change something around. Something.
It's been a while since I've written anything here either. I guess there's just not much going on aside from school, climbing, and church. But here goes.
I'm heading up to Utah this weekend. See some old friends and all. Should be a hoot. I'm leaving Friday, and coming back on Monday before school, so we'll have a couple of days.
I've also started as a volunteer membership clerk at church. It amounts to maintaining records, and making a directory. It sounds a little odd, but I was all kinds of excited to be offered this position. It's not like it pays or anything, it's just nice to be able to help, and this is something I can do pretty easily.
I've been reconsidering which technical certifications I am going to go for here. I already have my CCNA, and am taking a class in A+. The class is mostly review, and polishing some things up, but I hear the software portion will be covering some slightly more unknown information. There is also a class I'm taking in Solaris. It's basically a unix class. I can apparently get a certification there too. Lately I've been wondering about a Microsoft Windows Server kind of thing, to round stuff out, or a Networking+, since I've already got most of that down with Cisco. I may just have to see where this all goes.
Also, theres some dweeb I keep seeing all too often at school. Not a friend or anything, just someone who seems to have more time than personal skills, and is always hanging around. He tends to pop in from time to time, jump into your conversation, and inject his own brand of stupidity. I don't have any major problems with someone who has an opinion I don't share, but this guys arrogance is just a bit too much to stomach.
I was sitting there discussing religion, and evolution with someone, and the dweep, who shall henceforth be called Skippy, stopped by with a few tidbits of his own. First he interupted us, to guess what we were talking about, and after three wrong guesses we just told him. Then he told us that monotheism is the peak of religion, and that no scientific advancements have ever been made by anyone who is not monotheistic.
He explained how the first religions were basically just people worshipping nature, followed by people worshipping forces, gods, behind nature, followed again by people worshipping one all powerful god. That much I can kind of see, but I think he's over simplifying. The big problem is his statement that only a monotheistic religion can make any advances. Is he totally unaware of the ancient Greek civilization, or for that matter, anything more current in Japan or India.
He didn't stop. He went on after some argument to tell us that Christianity is such a great religion because it allows for more variance among its sects than any other religion. He said you can find Christians who are very pious and devout, and Christians who are very laid back. I pointed out that Christianity, in it's beginning, was a radical Jewish sect, so therefore Judaism is more encompassing than Christianity could ever be. Besides, you can find the variance he was talking about in pretty much any religion. If you like Christianity that's fine, but it's not the only religion.
That was my first encounter with him. Another day, as he was walking by, Skippy turned around and said, "Mastery of everything, that is what I seek," which would have been bad enough, but he went on with, "That is why I am slowly driving myself insane." Get a freakin' grip man. WTF! You're not insane man, you're just a moron. And mastery of everything? Put down the rpg for a minute and breathe man.
Then today, we're all watching TV, and he drops by for a little visit to let us know just what he thinks about the show we're watching. There's a guy who needs a web page so he can go there with his opinions, and we can all ignore him properly. As is, Skippy must die.
It's been a while since I've written anything here either. I guess there's just not much going on aside from school, climbing, and church. But here goes.
I'm heading up to Utah this weekend. See some old friends and all. Should be a hoot. I'm leaving Friday, and coming back on Monday before school, so we'll have a couple of days.
I've also started as a volunteer membership clerk at church. It amounts to maintaining records, and making a directory. It sounds a little odd, but I was all kinds of excited to be offered this position. It's not like it pays or anything, it's just nice to be able to help, and this is something I can do pretty easily.
I've been reconsidering which technical certifications I am going to go for here. I already have my CCNA, and am taking a class in A+. The class is mostly review, and polishing some things up, but I hear the software portion will be covering some slightly more unknown information. There is also a class I'm taking in Solaris. It's basically a unix class. I can apparently get a certification there too. Lately I've been wondering about a Microsoft Windows Server kind of thing, to round stuff out, or a Networking+, since I've already got most of that down with Cisco. I may just have to see where this all goes.
Also, theres some dweeb I keep seeing all too often at school. Not a friend or anything, just someone who seems to have more time than personal skills, and is always hanging around. He tends to pop in from time to time, jump into your conversation, and inject his own brand of stupidity. I don't have any major problems with someone who has an opinion I don't share, but this guys arrogance is just a bit too much to stomach.
I was sitting there discussing religion, and evolution with someone, and the dweep, who shall henceforth be called Skippy, stopped by with a few tidbits of his own. First he interupted us, to guess what we were talking about, and after three wrong guesses we just told him. Then he told us that monotheism is the peak of religion, and that no scientific advancements have ever been made by anyone who is not monotheistic.
He explained how the first religions were basically just people worshipping nature, followed by people worshipping forces, gods, behind nature, followed again by people worshipping one all powerful god. That much I can kind of see, but I think he's over simplifying. The big problem is his statement that only a monotheistic religion can make any advances. Is he totally unaware of the ancient Greek civilization, or for that matter, anything more current in Japan or India.
He didn't stop. He went on after some argument to tell us that Christianity is such a great religion because it allows for more variance among its sects than any other religion. He said you can find Christians who are very pious and devout, and Christians who are very laid back. I pointed out that Christianity, in it's beginning, was a radical Jewish sect, so therefore Judaism is more encompassing than Christianity could ever be. Besides, you can find the variance he was talking about in pretty much any religion. If you like Christianity that's fine, but it's not the only religion.
That was my first encounter with him. Another day, as he was walking by, Skippy turned around and said, "Mastery of everything, that is what I seek," which would have been bad enough, but he went on with, "That is why I am slowly driving myself insane." Get a freakin' grip man. WTF! You're not insane man, you're just a moron. And mastery of everything? Put down the rpg for a minute and breathe man.
Then today, we're all watching TV, and he drops by for a little visit to let us know just what he thinks about the show we're watching. There's a guy who needs a web page so he can go there with his opinions, and we can all ignore him properly. As is, Skippy must die.
Sunday, September 12, 2004
MRE
I don't say this often enough, but I love MREs. Considering the Western Beans, and the Mexican Style Rice have been sitting in a box on my floor for quite some time, been put in storage for a while longer, left in a backpack for a while, and not even warmed up, they taste pretty good. It's not like I'm even starving or anything. Just hungry, and my MREs are in high need of rotation.
In case you couldn't tell, I'm kind of big on emergency prep. I suggest you get some yourself. You can get them at the Saratoga Trading Company. Looks like they have some nice packages set up. You can get a box of 12 complete meals with entrees, sides, beverages, and crap for $64.99. That should last a wee bit.
I'm not saying they're any better than a fine dining experience at your favorite restaurant, but they pretty much beat the holy ever-loving crap out of, say, Lunchables. Especially after a few years. I'm not even sure I'd eat the Lunchables. Might harvest me some mold off of them though. That's good eatin'.
In case you couldn't tell, I'm kind of big on emergency prep. I suggest you get some yourself. You can get them at the Saratoga Trading Company. Looks like they have some nice packages set up. You can get a box of 12 complete meals with entrees, sides, beverages, and crap for $64.99. That should last a wee bit.
I'm not saying they're any better than a fine dining experience at your favorite restaurant, but they pretty much beat the holy ever-loving crap out of, say, Lunchables. Especially after a few years. I'm not even sure I'd eat the Lunchables. Might harvest me some mold off of them though. That's good eatin'.
Saturday, August 28, 2004
Lovefool
I heard a song a while ago driving home, liked it, had no idea who it was. It had a line that said, "I'm losing my favorite game" so I looked it up using that. Turns out The Cardigans are more gifted than I knew. Awesome group. I thought Lovefool was good, but Favorite Game? I'm going to have to look into some more of this stuff.
I was driving home from some church activity. They had some dating game setup. I won me two dates. Great people. Not really sure when the last time I had a date was. Kind of busy with school and all I guess. Something. Not that I'm complaining, I can guarantee things are a whole lot less complicated this way. I mean, now I have to figure out when and how I'm going to date these two. Some guys just get dumped on I guess.
I was driving home from some church activity. They had some dating game setup. I won me two dates. Great people. Not really sure when the last time I had a date was. Kind of busy with school and all I guess. Something. Not that I'm complaining, I can guarantee things are a whole lot less complicated this way. I mean, now I have to figure out when and how I'm going to date these two. Some guys just get dumped on I guess.
Monday, August 23, 2004
Back to School
I know I've already posted twice this month, and once today, and really, what blogger worth their own crap posts more than once a month, but there is stuff happening, and this really didn't belong with my other post. School starts up today. I've been looking forward to this. After this semester I'll just be a couple of classes away from an associates degree in wide area networking. I've already got my CCNA, and a certificate from the college in networking, and after this semester I should be able to certify for A+ as well. Life is good for the moment. Few things could make it better, maybe money, love, or power, but who doesn't always want those.
Maybe I should get books some time soon.
Maybe I should get books some time soon.
War in the Middle East
We went over some interesting stuff in church yesterday. Talking about war and all. There were a couple of people there who have relatives in the war in the middle east right now, and there was some interesting discussion, but the thing that stuck out in my mind the most was out of the lesson, a quote from David O. McKay, former president of the church, just after the bombing of pearl harbor.
I don't know why, but that just seemed to hit home. Really I can't think of any other reason to enter a war than these. The defense of freedom, and I say freedom not democracy, is really the greatest reason to fight. I don't consider myself a pacifist, but physical violence should really be restricted to uses like this, or to defend oneself, one's loved ones or the laws of one's nation.
There are people in and out of our country who protest America's involvement in the middle east, and I don't really believe that Iraq had a major roll in the bombing of 9/11, or that there were necessarily weapons of mass destruction, but Saddam Hussein is an evil man. He rules his country like a wife beater rules his family, and neither of these things should be allowed to exist if there is any power in the world capable of stopping them. If that's America, and regardless of individuals within, or countries without who are selfishly worried about their own image, I'm just glad someone is doing something.
There are, however, two conditions which may justify a truly Christian man to enter mind you, I say enter, not begin-a war: 1) An attempt to dominate and to deprive another of his free agency, and, 2) Loyalty to his country. Possibly there is a third, viz., Defense of a weak nation that is being unjustly crushed by a strong, ruthless one.
I don't know why, but that just seemed to hit home. Really I can't think of any other reason to enter a war than these. The defense of freedom, and I say freedom not democracy, is really the greatest reason to fight. I don't consider myself a pacifist, but physical violence should really be restricted to uses like this, or to defend oneself, one's loved ones or the laws of one's nation.
There are people in and out of our country who protest America's involvement in the middle east, and I don't really believe that Iraq had a major roll in the bombing of 9/11, or that there were necessarily weapons of mass destruction, but Saddam Hussein is an evil man. He rules his country like a wife beater rules his family, and neither of these things should be allowed to exist if there is any power in the world capable of stopping them. If that's America, and regardless of individuals within, or countries without who are selfishly worried about their own image, I'm just glad someone is doing something.
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
Vociferor
I haven't made a post in August yet. I must be slipping. Or slipped. Currently making my website work. it looks nice, but has no content. I have content, just not in it.
http://lord-greystoke.tripod.com/vociferor/index.html
I should have stuff in there soon. It's been a hoot.
Schools starting up again this month. Looking forward to that. I have computer hardware and operating system classes this semester. Those may bore many people, but I'm about to piss myself. It should be fun. Tuition however is not fun to anyone. I now have no money, and since I have no job. It's going to take a minute to save up some money.
I shouldn't say I'm broke. Truth is I have -895 Dollars. Far from broke. 895 dollars away from broke, just in the wrong direction.
Working on the whole job thing. Turned in a few applications, had an interview. Be hearing back about it on Friday (in two days). I have a good feeling about it. I also have a twisted gut about it. Also, I'm not totally sure it will be all that great, but having no money certainly isn't a day at the beach. Not that I like the beach a whole lot. The sand and waves are cool, but I'm just not a big sunsine person.
Church doesn't suck as much as I was thinking. It's a smaller group than I am used to, so I'm sure they will be looking for some more volunteering, but I'll be sure to let them know when I don't want to play anymore. Besides, the small group thing isn't too bad. Less names to learn. Sort of a closer group in theory, but I've never been much for closeness.
Speaking of closeness, I think dating has got to be about the most akward thing anyone has ever thought up. It makes one want to vomit, or not vomit. It's not unpleasant, just nerve racking, sometimes painful, and frequently unsettling. There have to be some theories behind it all, but they are about as user friendly as calculus. No sense whining about it anymore though. That should pretty much do it.
http://lord-greystoke.tripod.com/vociferor/index.html
I should have stuff in there soon. It's been a hoot.
Schools starting up again this month. Looking forward to that. I have computer hardware and operating system classes this semester. Those may bore many people, but I'm about to piss myself. It should be fun. Tuition however is not fun to anyone. I now have no money, and since I have no job. It's going to take a minute to save up some money.
I shouldn't say I'm broke. Truth is I have -895 Dollars. Far from broke. 895 dollars away from broke, just in the wrong direction.
Working on the whole job thing. Turned in a few applications, had an interview. Be hearing back about it on Friday (in two days). I have a good feeling about it. I also have a twisted gut about it. Also, I'm not totally sure it will be all that great, but having no money certainly isn't a day at the beach. Not that I like the beach a whole lot. The sand and waves are cool, but I'm just not a big sunsine person.
Church doesn't suck as much as I was thinking. It's a smaller group than I am used to, so I'm sure they will be looking for some more volunteering, but I'll be sure to let them know when I don't want to play anymore. Besides, the small group thing isn't too bad. Less names to learn. Sort of a closer group in theory, but I've never been much for closeness.
Speaking of closeness, I think dating has got to be about the most akward thing anyone has ever thought up. It makes one want to vomit, or not vomit. It's not unpleasant, just nerve racking, sometimes painful, and frequently unsettling. There have to be some theories behind it all, but they are about as user friendly as calculus. No sense whining about it anymore though. That should pretty much do it.
Sunday, July 25, 2004
Church stuff
Anyone who knows me knows I am a fairly religious person. I recently (like within the past month or two) started attending a different church (just a different group of people, same beliefs and stuff). This particular group was supposed to be a good place to socialize with some of my peers. people about my age, people I am not related to. Also, it was a graceful way to get out of teaching the nine year old class I had (I like them, but enough is enough). anyway I'm not all that great at the whole getting to know people but I was doing all right. Starting to get used to faces and even learn a few names. In short I was really enjoying it. Today, they decided to split up our group into like 3 or 4 more locally centered groups. I suppose I support their decision. It was logical, rational, and probably ultimately good, but it sucks.
I'll try to work on being more optimistic. By next week I may love it.
On a vaguely different line, we had a big church superactivity last weekend. a camping trip at the sand dunes national monument (in Colorado). cool place. freakin 5 hour drive from north Denver. It was good to hang out with everyone, talk. But the real reason we went all the way down there was to see this big celebration that they were having in Manassa. Manassa is a little Mormon town. Emphases on little. being the 24th of July (big as the 4th of July in Utah), they were having a bit of a party with a parade, carnival, barbecue, rodeo, and demolition derby. Sounded awesome. in reality, it was a bit disappointing. I did ride a mechanical bull though. Stayed on pretty well. Beat my brother anyway. I also saw an alligator farm. I'm not sure if the alligators or the swampfolk running the thing were the stranger sight. the alligators were cool though. I held one. The bigger alligators growled at us, and the ostriches kind of opened their mouths and hissed. spit a little too. I'm not really sure why there were ostriches. also there was a chicken. I really don't know what was up with that. There's not much between you and the alligators though. Just a chain link fence. It's a good thing alligators are so lazy.
On the way back up here, we stopped at Garden of the Gods. If you're ever around Colorado Springs, I would recommend this one. They have some nice trails to walk on with the coolest freakin rocks. Apparently there is climbing allowed on some of them, but I didn't catch which ones it was allowed on.
That's about it for now. I'll try to get back sooner, but really. It could be a couple months.
I'll try to work on being more optimistic. By next week I may love it.
On a vaguely different line, we had a big church superactivity last weekend. a camping trip at the sand dunes national monument (in Colorado). cool place. freakin 5 hour drive from north Denver. It was good to hang out with everyone, talk. But the real reason we went all the way down there was to see this big celebration that they were having in Manassa. Manassa is a little Mormon town. Emphases on little. being the 24th of July (big as the 4th of July in Utah), they were having a bit of a party with a parade, carnival, barbecue, rodeo, and demolition derby. Sounded awesome. in reality, it was a bit disappointing. I did ride a mechanical bull though. Stayed on pretty well. Beat my brother anyway. I also saw an alligator farm. I'm not sure if the alligators or the swampfolk running the thing were the stranger sight. the alligators were cool though. I held one. The bigger alligators growled at us, and the ostriches kind of opened their mouths and hissed. spit a little too. I'm not really sure why there were ostriches. also there was a chicken. I really don't know what was up with that. There's not much between you and the alligators though. Just a chain link fence. It's a good thing alligators are so lazy.
On the way back up here, we stopped at Garden of the Gods. If you're ever around Colorado Springs, I would recommend this one. They have some nice trails to walk on with the coolest freakin rocks. Apparently there is climbing allowed on some of them, but I didn't catch which ones it was allowed on.
That's about it for now. I'll try to get back sooner, but really. It could be a couple months.
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
Rock climbing
Haven't posted in a little while, so...
Of to a great start really with this whole blog thing. Normally you at least have the motivation in the beginning. I've been working on my site, but there is still nothing there yet. Just trying to write/collect some good content. Make up some graphics, spiff things up a bit. I have been rock climbing a lot lately. Here's the new happiest place on earth ROCK'n & JAM'n. I recently graduated myself from 5.7 to 5.8. If you are not familiar with rock climbing rating systems, 5.anything refers to a freeclimbing. That's anything that can be climbed without ropes or any special equipment (shoes and chalk excepted). 6.anything requires equipment and 4.anything from what I understand is not really climbing. A beginner can probably climb up to 5.6 or 5.7 no problem, but that's all wuss stuff now. My brother can do the 5.9s. Sort of pisses me off really, but he has been going all summer, so I guess he's earned that. Seems that most of the people there climb in the 5.10-5.12 range. Makes you feel pathetic to see some little kid climb something that you cant even hang on, but if I weighed 80 pounds I'd probably get up the wall a little easier too.
Of to a great start really with this whole blog thing. Normally you at least have the motivation in the beginning. I've been working on my site, but there is still nothing there yet. Just trying to write/collect some good content. Make up some graphics, spiff things up a bit. I have been rock climbing a lot lately. Here's the new happiest place on earth ROCK'n & JAM'n. I recently graduated myself from 5.7 to 5.8. If you are not familiar with rock climbing rating systems, 5.anything refers to a freeclimbing. That's anything that can be climbed without ropes or any special equipment (shoes and chalk excepted). 6.anything requires equipment and 4.anything from what I understand is not really climbing. A beginner can probably climb up to 5.6 or 5.7 no problem, but that's all wuss stuff now. My brother can do the 5.9s. Sort of pisses me off really, but he has been going all summer, so I guess he's earned that. Seems that most of the people there climb in the 5.10-5.12 range. Makes you feel pathetic to see some little kid climb something that you cant even hang on, but if I weighed 80 pounds I'd probably get up the wall a little easier too.
Tuesday, June 1, 2004
Starting off here
I've tried a few times to put together some kind of blog. I like reading them, and it looked fun to try to throw one together. Usually I just edited all of the HTML myself in notepad, so it's understandable that I never really lasted all that long with one of these. This should be a little easier, so maybe I'll stay with it a while longer. I'll put up som crap about me later, and scrape up some links to good sites, but for today this is likely all I'll get put up. And a link to my site, although it's not updated much more than any blog I've tried.
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